The One That's Written Without Looking At The Keyboard

Well hello everybody! i don't know about you but to me, it's pretty damn strange to be typing a whole post without looking at my keyboard (which i currently very well hidden under my scarf). I'm probably gonna make a huge amount of mistakes in this because i^m too lazy to find the delete button all the time, so i hope you'll still be able to make sense of what i'm saying.

Soooo.... today I'm here to talk about opening up. As someone highly private who doesn't like talking too much about feelings and all that, opening up is not the easiest thing to do. If you were to ask any of my friends, every single one of them would probably tell you that I'm more the one that listens to other people's struggles that talking about their own. All in all, I'm a bottle-up person. Ignore it, leave it, procrastinate dealing with it until it hits you so hard one day that there's no way to ignore it anymore and there goes the good day. I know, I know, I know, not the way to go. But what can I do about it?

If you've been on here for a while now, you'll probably know that I'm constantly trying to do something about my flaws, always trying new things in terms of battling through my dramatic teenager-life, there's always something to fix. I know this doesn't sound good, I know very well it probably isn't too good for my mental health and all that srudf, but at the same time it's just always so refreshing and nice to try new things. And also, there are just things you need to work on, things that will hold you back if you don't change them.

And I know for a fact that bottling-up anything and everything is not going to be good long term. I think that's one of the reasons why I like blogging so much - I can just write down all my crazy thoughts instead of saying them out loud (what often makes them seem pretty ridiculous).

Anyaways, I have tried to get over myawlf a little lately, just tell it, don't cringe about yourself just because you're feeling the same as the teenage character in the hollywood movie you and your friends always make fun of - just talk about it. It's hard and I know for some of you this might not be easy to understand because I know a whole bunch of people that don't have any problems talking about whatever they're feeling, though I admittedly also happen to know one or another (male) person that probably bottles up things even worse than I do.

In conclusion, I can say nothing other than what you would probably expect me to say because it's just true: Although holding thins to yourself might be the easier version, opening uo so somebody is the better one. Talk to somebody. Or write it down for other people on the internet to read like I do.

Anyways, sorry for all the mustakes, I'll see you soon,


Popular Posts